The Joy and the Pain of Waiting

I did not renew my contract with the City Treasurer's Office because of practical reasons: one is that I have to take three rides to get into the office from our house. I have to consider also my health since it has been ten months from my first giving of birth. Practically, I have to rest.
My sister and I have been interested about online jobs. That's why we convinced our mother to purchased for us a new personal computer with unlimited internet connection.
It's been almost a month of trying and waiting for responses from prospect employers of online jobs.... from freelance sites. But, we ended on paid to click and paid to review websites.
I, personally has high hopes of landing in a rewarding online job since I have to work for my little boy. My husband is on training at Laguna for his work. I don't want to depend on him.
Viewing the same ads everyday is tiring but I just managed to encouraged myself to go on... wanting to reach the minimum payout of each website, hoping that in due day, I can get what I was paid for. I am starting to love this job. Just like I what I have prayed, "Lord, supply our everyday needs."

Realizations

Well, my life has been so confusing these days. But one thing is sure: IM STILL OK, PRAISE THE LORD!!!
The uncertainties in life may pull you down but when you choose to be all right in God’s perspective, everything will be ok. Pressures from different sources may be great, but I always thank the Lord that He never left me. It’s hard to be pretentious but I also thank God that He has given me that “ability” so that I will not affect people surrounding me. Wew! My mind may not give in to advises of some friends and colleagues and my heart may not feel ok with the symphaties of every concern people… but I praise the Lord that He is able to bring me back to my senses and realize that apart from him I am just nobody.
I’ve been thanking Him for the uncertainties in my life for because of it… I learned to be sure that in Him my future is secured.
I thank Him for the discouragements I feel in almost everything because He is ready to encourage me when no one is around.
I always thank Him for the hurts people are giving me because I always feel love from Him that never changes over the time.